winnie

2009-10-10T04:34:00.001+08:00

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2009-08-26T00:35:00.002+08:00

tomorrow will be my first paper for the end sem exams.
first paper is at 9am.

i am abit anxious but i still insist to come online and blog hop alittle and blog alittle.
i really cant wait for exams to be over.

my boy just started studying his paper. i really really hope it will turn out well for him. prays..

2009-08-22T01:04:00.003+08:00

I have been heading down to haji lane from tues to friday except thurs.
and today i walked from DG to bugis. :( is so humid and i cant believe i manage to reached haji lane. the name card was pretty alright looking. i spend a night doing it and it takes skills to have it printed out nicely.

i have been a happy girl with things going smoothly around me.
all i need now is energy to pull through my exams and do it well.
is my final sem that is counted in my GPA.i better have to do it well to get into uni in singapore!

have to comfirm everything again then i will blog abt why do i have to go down to haji lane so often.really exciting stuffs!

2009-08-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

I have like so much to study with so little time!
and have been running down to haji lane this few days.
i better start catching some sleep and study as much as possible.

and i sill cannot finalize the name card design. gosh!
my head is spinning again!

2009-08-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

is super tiring and emotional.
there are ups and downs like a roller coaster ride.
but how long will it takes to ride up again?

i am pondering and thinking very hard and definitely putting in a lot of effort.

2009-08-07T02:26:00.002+08:00

I had never loved someone so much before to the extend that i do things unknowingly for you.
we should work hard and play hard together.

Had many projects due and finally BD project presentation is like FINALLY OVER! super happy.is a chore to me and i have been trying to figure out how to do a sales forecast for many days. took me like days and hours to do up one that has support for it.

had photo shoot and it was really fun.
is a long holiday but i doubt i can get some rest during this weekend either!
:( it will be all the way till exams are over!!!

and my stomach is not feeling very well and good this few days. have no idea why! maybe i should drink a glass of milk and run to toilet for the next 3 days to feel better? i will consider this if i am staying at home for 2 days.

i just wish that every morning, you are the first person i could see.

2009-08-02T01:24:00.001+08:00

After 2 days of intensive standing..is finally over.
me and my mum are not in a very good relationship now.
the only motivation i have is from you now.
and i will do it well.

2009-07-30T02:37:00.002+08:00

All along i really love my family as much as i can give and provide for.
and i did not know i have so much thoughts and thinking until just now.

Your voice made me calm down immediately. I do not know how to live without you now.
i have screwed up eyes tomorrow again.

2009-07-28T10:20:00.001+08:00

i woke up at 8.30am..took a cab down..reach school at 9.30..eventually on time for presentation but the teacher shoot us dam hard for our ppt. And eventually we have to redo our ppt for our report.the events are all linked up to give a very bad Consequence

2009-07-26T14:54:00.002+08:00

Is sunday.tomorrow is monday again!
is getting nearer for the end year exams. is quite scary to see how much of work i have to study. Come to think about it.next week i have work and projects to juggle. me and carmen are feeling supper regret to work for fila again.

whats with my life with so much work that are unnecessary.
if passion for work is there then there should not be much problem. and i am trying to find that passion for now.

2009-07-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

Lately things have been going real bad for me.
somehow in life.it just do not get in the way that i want to be like.
it is not a good year for me at all. from the start till now.

but whats the point to rant about?
swollen eyes and tired mentally

2009-07-22T00:34:00.002+08:00

Feel the love in the air with my dearest! even is a short period of time. Is precious! I love her to the max. looking forward to fly to her house and cuddle in her house for a week! it will happen!
tomorrow,carmen say at 8 to 11 it will be very dark. my dad says is just cloudy not fully dark.we will see who win eventually!

off to bed because i am real tired after today test and alarm at 6am ! tomorrow class at 10 :(

2009-07-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

is like drizzling. So i randomly pick a chair and sat down to rest my tired legs. Waiting for the boat to like reach the dock!
Met priscilla up today!she transit again. Her appearance just sometimes motivate me to work hard. Haha.no idea why.i keep telling myself as long as hard work is placed in there should not be any problem. Outcome is always impt but if things get so out of hand during the process it will not be something pleasant.
The manufactured pieces are reaching on friday.i am excited. The pc that i put quite alot of effort designing it. And a basic tank dress that is inspired by topshop.h&m and riverisland.
Oh gosh.i am still sipping my lime juice with a bowwl of nuts.is quite fun waiting for somebody thou. I think i have to go temple to pray.i dono i just feel like it.gonna do it by this week.failed attempt today as i slept at 5am today.
I am going to go on and surf the net and sip my lime juice.wait patiently for the boat to reach the pier. I can sense that i am alittle tired but i have to edit all the pics before i head to bed no matter what time i reach home!

2009-07-16T01:22:00.001+08:00

i feel so terrible now.
i have no idea how you think of me. i am myself i cant be someone.

2009-07-13T08:48:00.002+08:00

non of my BD mates came to school.i suspect they all cant wake up or they just plan not to come. but for now at least i have time to do my gems but looking in the long run, we have to spend more time fixing up our presentation. is quite rubbish to do fyp too.
is quite tough for me now.regretting i went to china neglecting this and that. i had my fair bit of fun but now i am struggling with many stuffs. i think carmen will think the same way as i do.but not as much as i gave up.

no matter what there will be a way. i will just survive through as what i always do. maybe i am not the kind that always have a smooth path for me. need some hard work and struggle before reaching my aim.there will be a way..i just have to constantly have this mentally!

my parents are just getting my nerves esp my mom. my sis also agrees. she suddenly changed alot over night. extremely need motivation now.

going out to eat dinner today! just a simple dinner and i will be contented. :D
somehow you are a person that i feel at least more knowledgeable than me. someone that can help me in whatever things that i do. you usually do not do the things that i wanted to be like. that is why i usually feel quite annoyed. but i can see that you are changing, trust what i say.you are changing a little for me. whatever you say meant alot for me sometime. just a single motivation word can last me for a day. and this is what i need now; having to face quite a number of obstacles now. is true.
grab me a little when i am really down and demoralized. i loss my temper easily reason because i cannot handle lots of stress. when things are on place i promise you, i will learn not to flare at you so often. i sometimes just use you to relief some of my stress. and i do feel bad after that.
like you, i do not meant every single word i said.

i am just myself everyday sometimes alittle stress over stuffs only! :D

2009-07-12T12:06:00.002+08:00

if previously i have a room like this it will be heavan.
but i will fix a room like this for my children next time.izzit everyone's dream home?

2009-07-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

I guess i have many random posts for last week. oh well.my phone allows me to blog so i just go ahead and do it.maybe i should sign up for twitter? is like random thoughts for random people like me.

i am able to plan my stuff properly after the holidays. i am quite satisfied with myself.. on the other hand, the bond with my parents are drifting. they just think that whatever stuff i am doing is not the course that i should be doing. is quite headache to know this. after a day in school and a night of work.when i am back at home i do not even feel like before. is like i am back at this rented room? is quite sad izzit it? tried to talk to them but is just a word answer or just no reply.have no idea whats the problem with her.
some pictures!

me and my sis in jimbaran. Oh and did i mention that i am going bali again? this time round with my friends in about 1 and a half months time.
not very excited yet.maybe because cash is quite tight for me?

Love priscilla! and love my dress too!

random at the airport with my sis
Garuda Indonesia airline with no tv but at least they served food compare to budget airlines!
i just love the feeling of jetting off from singapore. i want to go bangkok for real shopping and australia with you and cuddle in prisclla's house!

things sometimes get out of hand but i have no idea why i acted like this. i tried so hard not to act the way that u dislike but sometimes you pushed me to the extreme. i am trying..trust me. do not judge me just because i do the stuffs that you do not like. i am living this way for the past 19 years and suddenly you ask me to change, i need at least time.

photoshoot tomorrow..and i have to apply insect replellent before my leg are infested with mosquitos again!

2009-07-08T10:39:00.002+08:00

wheee..yesterday went smooth! I felt?
Only thing is that i cant stay out very late..so at 2.30am i manage to get my whole body back to my house.
I dragged myself to clean off my make up thinking that it will be quite rubbish to sleep with the make up one.

Just felt the connection between us. the cookie turned out to be quite not in a good state after it survived in my bag for 4 hrs at a funny position..

2009-07-07T09:12:00.000+08:00

so here i am at gems class. Having to know that i hav presentation next week is quite sscary.i dont even know what we are suppose to present on.haha. all i do in gems class is to surf the net and come in late.
Today will be a busyy day! My calendar is packed from 8am to 12mid night. Hopefully it will go well for everything.Pray hard that you will be statisfied!
Yesterday i met up with elijah.atikah.and shihui! Woots.is the best time that i ever had.simple

2009-06-27T15:32:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was work day, roger called me to cover for him so i agreed without thinking..maybe because money can tempt me with anything now. pay is not that good but eventually i still work for it.And then, roger told me i can find another person to work with me..so i pulled atikah with me.. we had loads of fun..really loads of fun.. made new friends. talk nonsense.. slack a little. but the night was terrible, the wagon was so messy.so i spend like 1 hr re-packing the $10 rack wagon. only carmen and jia zhi will understand this feeling of not allowing other people to mess it up after i do it nicely.

after that,trained and bus home.had some food and went home! it was the first time i can really feel it. the closeness and everything. we work hard together and we will definitely see results.. i will stand firmly with you. i promise.

2009-06-25T01:59:00.005+08:00

I failed to understand that my holiday is over. All the massages,beaches,food,sun,water comes to an end.

Just because exams are next week and this week events are fully packed till i am feeling scared.
i constantly remind myself to get on to my books and achieve great stuff from it but eventually i failed. including today night and last night. all failed.

i shall make a point to update my blog as much as i could from now on. (well i usually say that)
my life seems perfect now.at least the life that i always looking for at the age of 19. i just need to put in more effort to make it even better. i had learn many things as time pass. i reflect i change but i cant change much that will make me to the person that you desire me to be one. Life is just about myself giving myself the best - the selfish thinking. Isn't that what everyone thinks even people say it is selfish and it is wrong to say that. trash the rubbish thoughts.

when i am drown with alcohol, just a little will do i will eventually spill things out that no one knows what i am thinking. i have no idea if it is good or bad. so is better to drink coconut water!
just happen to have this picture so i linked it up!

Priscilla is back..i saw her yesterday.her banana meals are working on her. and we have loads to tell each other. is never ending.. how i wish she can just stay in singapore for a week and please please please that week is a holiday without exams or test the following week. she always reach singapore at the time when i have exams the following week or the next day or around that week :( is hard thou..so this time round is the same again! gonna spend more quality time with her again during my exam week..and her birthday! so in order for me to do so..i have to study first! study tomorrow! and saturday..hard core studying.. and i really hope i can!

ikea is having private sales on next friday at 8am to 10am for "friends". is quite a rubbish time! why cant they like have the entire day for members! 8am is way too early.. gonna go there to get stuffs- is like getting stuffs for our new home.

A post full or words and random thoughts. bali trip was fun. it show was fun too. oh did i mention. i only slept like 1 hr before i fly to bali. cant believed i survived the day. and of course i fall asleep everywhere i go.. from singapore to jakata then to bali.whenever it does not require me to walk i fell asleep!

tomorrow i will wake up and check the stocks that are available. going down to fetch stuffs and submit the piece to jaz. i am working very hard for my lj. reason being i have slacken over the 2 to 3 months. and of course burry myself under the books!

2009-05-31T17:46:00.002+08:00

i am quite sick of BD now.
presentation and report is killing me.

i have to find back my motivation to chiong for the presentation despite of my horrible foot now. i have to limp to school now!!! is super painful i swear is really very painful.

alright BD time. i am just here to complain since my blog is dying and to find back my motivation to type my business idea.

and ontop of that i am going to do well for my blog..this time round i am serious.. :D watch out for me!

2009-04-18T17:55:00.002+08:00

as expected..things really changed when i am back in singapore!all these days after i reached singapore i waa accompained by my new red phone that alllows me to blog now.i told ,myself that i will not do anything that will make me hedache for the next few months.but i am starting to list down the plans for the stuffs here and there.alittle workaholic too.but i try to go out as much as possible.not to spend money but to cover back the time missed for my friends.i missed china..thats for sure. The carefree life that i always want to have.and whats more is with carmen.i bet we had loads of fun together.stupid pics and videos.my baggage is like 46kg without handcarry..if u want me to type out all the events that are significant only it will take forever for me to list down.met alot of different friends from different course.then sorted out my thinking but i am afraid i am not firm on my decision.and whats with clubbing?i am not a person that will really club alot and i should act like one. the trust that i always believe and hold on has just proven that all that is just a lie.so whats with rubbish bin in my brain now?i had suffeered feeling very sad over him at that time and it should be sufficient and i should not let the tears and everything be wasted.stay firm.forget about him.including his birthday present..if he does not take it from me.i will just place it in my cupboard till i feel the time is right i will dispose it away.but i dont mind giving his birthday present to him..whatever.i got sun burn from swimming today..i am going to lead a healthy lifestyle and have good time management in order to complete all the things on time.i must learn too other wise carrmen will say i always got this stress face when i cant do things finish and my temper will turn super bad too...

2009-03-30T08:55:00.001+08:00

Although i feel very terrible almost every moment.

the feeling is so suffocating, like something blocking my passage for breathing.

but there is no point being like this when you dont even fucking know. you will be enjoying every moment and i am not.

2009-03-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

i dont like the feeling now.
the same problem over and over again. i do not know how to solve it neither i know how to avoid it. i numb it by drinking but it does not really help much either.

i can just topple at any time now. i am wide awake.

2009-03-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

i cant get to sleep because you did not pick up my call!
damn it. i really really miss your voice a lot.

2009-03-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

is TGIF! another 20 more min i can walk out of the company happily!
work is ulitmate slack today even there is VIP!
i enjoy picking up calls now. well for the past few hours after lunch i ate.bisuits.banana,grapes and big bao. alot of food. i am full for the first time during knock off time!

life in suzhou now i am adapting it well. and i am loving the weather now. not too cold and not too hot.
but my sorethroat is back again. but i have medicine from the staff here! hopefully it will be alright by tomorrow morning! it taste bitter.

hopefully my mind had sorted out everything. i will enjoy my shopping life in suzhou and shanghai! and with carmen here! and the crazy hui wen, and the another crazy cheyanne..
leave the rest of worrying till i reach singapore.

enjoy my life now here!!!!
imagine me and carmen always carry a plastic bag home every night. the money in our wallet is decreasing as fast as the water is flowingg.

is 5.22 now.time to pack!

2009-03-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

i seriously find that problems i meet will always be repeating. is the same old problems that i do not even bother to solve for once.
i hear the same sentence from different people and i freak out and cried. because when ever i hear that i knew the ending very well myself. because the history will repeat itself.

i do not get it. why is it always me. i am so tired now.
people do this to me and i cant do this to other people because i hate people doing it to me and it will be sinful that i do that to other people.
see thats the point. is so freaking irritating and tiring. if i were to trust your words and live my life here as thou nothing happened i think i cant. but in order not to let history repeat. i will not doubt your words now. for once, i will trust you not like the past. i will trust whatever you say and not doubt any of it now. whatever it is i will try.
whatever that is going to happen i will accept it with open arms. good or bad.

i am just afraid that the same history will repeat on you. and i do not wish to see it happen because i had enough of crying,headache and tired.

i said stupid things that i am obviously jealous. i call you when ever i had the urge to hear your voice. are there really stupid? but i seriously miss you alot.

2009-03-19T08:21:00.003+08:00

Feeling very tired and tired i am here at work listening to my songs on my psp for the first time at work.and the battery life is dying.
i was reading your blog here. it makes me reconsider everything. not really reconsider but i jjust wanna stop everything and know what you are thinking instead of just me. i had a feeling i was just over-relying you when i am here in china.
so i am still thinking if i should stop these till i get back to singapore.
now the matter of fact is that if i am able to do it.

i seriously dislike the feeling now but i terribly miss you. is just so contridicting.

i said i miss you.

2009-03-17T22:40:00.002+08:00

i just feel that i am the one who is doing everything.
should i stop it?

results out tonight.
i am shopping like crazy even before i go shanghai this weekend.

my sister misses me like mad till she cry. and i do seriously miss her alot. real loads.

a lot of mixed feelings currently. no idea how to deal with them..... :( :)

2009-03-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

working life is really really tiring.
i can see how the company run working as a receptionist. from minor stationary problems to real big problems like short of salary for the month. but i have translation to do everyday. time pass fast when the front desk encounter loads of problems. the period we are waiting for it definitely the lunch time! is the best time for the working hours. and definitely at 5.30pm.
i do all sorts of stuffs too much to list down but the most is translation. i translate poems..essays. corporate documents. i do until i blur.

well.. life still have to go on working there. and today we have a taxi driver that will pick us up to work and back to the motel. BUT today after work he PS us can!! he never come.and is raining very heavily.wind blowing.no umbrella. very frustrated because we cant hail or call a cab and we were all drenched. is really an experience. hopefully i do not fall sick tomorrow!

my friday is approaching!!! most prob going to stay over at my friend's work apartment tmr then we will head to wuxi and hangzhou during the weekends. and tmr will be the first time my supervisor will grade me! hopefully she understand my chinese! hahha.and hopefully she would want me to write in english!!

i spend quite a sum. from tiny stuffs to big stuffs. i bought 3 pair of shoes till date. i wonder how am i going to bring back home. and i have not went to shanghai..i bet i am going to spend alot there! and there is a shopping centre just beside our motel. is a sinful place. i will never come out empty-handed from that place.carmen also!
and i still have a couple of stuffs i want to get in the shopping centre! another bag..a pair of shorts. a top. a pink sunglasses! really bad.the list can go on. is just that shopping centre!!!!!!! imagine u bring one item back everyday! your wallet will shrink.is just the matter of time.

alright. i am really tired now! tomorrow is ZERO degree. hopefully the amount of clothes i will be wearing is enough!

is just 4 more weeks more and i will get to see you again. i really really miss your presence. bring me close to you again!

2009-03-07T14:03:00.003+08:00

is saturday and it will be a shopping day for me again!
i spend like 500rmb worth of stuffs or maybe more? shoes,winter wear,coat,boots.and i am still not done yet. i guess tomorrow and tonight i will be spending more!

here the shopping is just fun esp with the girls. bargaining. but is kinda sad that they do not sell summer stuffs here. maybe towards to the end of march before we leave here.

is really cold here. no joke.we hate the wind thats for sure.
i bought a pair of boots at 45rmb around less than 10 bucks.i got that becos i bought the same design as my small sis for her. so i am going to get one real high boots. bargaining is the power!

hopefully the company is good here which is starting on monday! but is really quite fun and a different experience to be in china. in terms of everything. even though our company is bad i guess it is still worth. we are going out like 2.30pm for shopping since we just got back from the tour in suzhou. and is sunday! me and carmen are going to sleep till 11 pm plus plus then we make our way to the mac and have our breakfast instead of the ugly and not nice food in the hotel. i uploaded some pics!

the moment we reached the airport it is frezing cold. is too cold and i only have the coat packed in my hand luggage. freezing cold.

At some places in shanghai! is like a back garden.

And the renowed xing tian ti which is clark quay in singapore. they have really nice buildings for drinking. this is one of their shop banner which is pink

black and white with some vintage buildings.

well.there are loads of pictures. not uploaded to the laptop yet. :D i guess i better catch some rest before walking again!

a different place with no worries about what to wear tomorrow. becos is too limited!

how i wish you are with me now. i do not mind sleeping on your shoulders.

2009-03-03T23:34:00.002+08:00

tomorrow morning call at 6.45AM.
and i dont think me and carmen will sleep early since there is wi-fi here.
just came back from the long walk tp the "7-eleven".
is frezzinggg colld and very cold here. my lips taste salty, my hands are shivering, it seems like no matter how much we wear is still cold.

shanghai is a nice place! it looks quite like singapore at certain areas. did not get to buy stuffs today but tomorrow i will! :D
and staying in the luxurious hotel with plasma tv and comfy bed and very very very glam bath roomm.

:D

2009-03-02T12:42:00.004+08:00

is just too early to get married.
jetting off soon tomorrow morning at 10am.
pray hard that i will not miss home. the past few days i have been quite happy and loved even though i have sleepless nights and bad appetite due to unknown reasons.

the last day in singapore, i do not even want to know if you would contact me anymore. since you have decided to, i will respect it and adapt to it.

off to post office later at 1.30 with big bags of packages. then back for photo-taking. type the CHINESE intro letter that nearly killed me last night. spend 1 hour typing the first para.i wonder how am i going to survive there. :( then i will have my dinner with my family which i insist too since my mother has been complaining that i MIA every night since exams are over. then i will go out and buy the stuffs that i forget to buy.and jet off in the morning.

jam packed with activities in one day.

i will miss my family, you, friends.
wait for me. i will be back in 6 weeks time.

loves,
winnie

2009-03-01T02:09:00.002+08:00

so here i am blogging even though i am super tired.
but come to think about it i left 2 more days in singapore or rather to lie on my bed with my laptop infront of me for 2 more days.

after exams activities are just fun. i sleep so late everyday that i do not know if i can survive thru without falling sick.

met up with every one my close friends thou! including priscilla. since my friends only say i always have 2 friends which is atikah and elijah yes i met up with them too. they are my ultra close friends!

went marina to eat yaki yuki (or the other way round). did not have much appetite to eat too but jian wei and elijah are just nice cos i was treated like a princess. they cook for me to eat! took pictures along clark quay and esplanade then off home. and i was home at 10pm is not considered late rite?

i still have loads of things to pack and do before i fly.pray hard tat everything is fine when i am there. no robbery.lost of passport or stuffs.

and of cos i do miss people who are in singapore. 6 weeks not consider long but is just too long without seeing them. get what i meant? just want to make a call everyday and say that i am fine.

i have to wake up at 8plus tmr.e-mails not cleared because ibanking down. so i haave to wake up and clear before going out. shiok timing to take pictures at 10am. hais.

hopefully able to blog the studio pictures taken tmr before i jet off.
able to feel the love in the air?i am jetting off within 2 days and i still not yet hear from you.you really win this time round.

2009-02-26T11:25:00.002+08:00

papers are finally all over.
and today is the first day of freedom and i am up at this time. i should be sleeping.instead i am here with my fav porridge infront of me.

while i am leaving for singapore within like 4 more days.
i have to settle
stock check plus sales post
buying of all the essential stuffs for the long trip
go down to the bank money charger..everything that concerns money i have to head down.
meet all my friends before leaving
pack my stuffs into the big luggage

i only have 4 days and i have to pack all the stuffs within 4 days. i think i will have heavy eye bags even before i go there.

on a lighter note, priscilla will be here in like 2 more hours. so i have to rush and head to the bank and a trip down to winter wear and meet her.
and i am still at home not yet prepared :X

i do look forward to this trip since i am going with carmen, my room mate cum everything. i wonder how we survive the full 30 odd days there. but i guess i will do a massive shopping spree there!

got to go now.

2009-02-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

if i will to take back all my words from the previous post, i guess nothing will change.
well. resign to faith.

i am jetting off in a week time. away till mid of April. surviving with carmen. my dear friends were laughing at carmen that she will be like me and there will be 2 winnie when we are back. because we sleep,work,stay all at the same place.
they will have real and serious headache if there are 2 winnie in our clique when school re-open.

Priscilla,when she is back.i will rush to tell her everything that happened within the period that i dont see her. we can talk and talk and talk.talk about plans,holidays,marriage. and defintely able to meet tinghao and FRIENDS. while looking at the pictures and videos they are really something that i can re look many times before i am statisfied. there is so much fun,laughter.
the fun times we had.

i will be meeting her again next thurs when she touch down to singapore. :DDD
her dosage is needed before i jet off to china.

till now.exams are important.going to study tomorrow and sunday.lock myself in the room and without my laptop for sure!.

after exams i will upload pictures :D till now i am still in the process of getting that phobia and thinking out of my head. it will soon be off from my head.!

ciaos

2009-02-01T17:09:00.002+08:00

is such a long time since i blog.the urge for me to blog today is because while i was finding something in my room. i found a card that was in a box.still in perfect condition.
a card that i did not really bother at that time. maybe is just fate. the words in there meant something.something deep.
is such a long time and i think it should be over. there is not point keeping you in my mind.is a torture. i do silly things till my friends think i am mad. since things does not fall in place nicely my life has to still carry on.

what is infront of me are challenges awaiting for me to overcome.
my family problems.
my school work.
my website.
my future.

at certain times, i really have the urge to just text you or just to know that u are fine with your life.but is always a disappointment for me. i do not get it neither do i want to know why now. may be is just too complex.something that i will not understand but you do.

i got the strong feeling that this thoughts in my mind will not last long.but i will do all means to drill it into my mind and permanently lock it inside. it will take time but i have to be determined about this.
sometimes i am jealous over people and ask why does it not me. but i had seen alot and ponder alog, is just a person fate. when is suppose to come it will. so i guess patience will be the key thing now.

cny is half way over. i had fun. either in kampong or in singapore. my uncle and aunties gave me lots of courage to fulfill what i really hope to achieve.
i am not like you, a person without what you would like to achieve in this year or in the future.

Carmen and me will be leaving for china in about 1 month time. i doubt you will still remember that i am going there for attachment.although i told u quite a few times before.

YEAH! my poly friends that made my life fun and very fun and more fun.
and of cos my MA teacher that really killed us on his project.and now another test on tuesday :(

i had loads of fun gambling the whole day yesterday and of cos having sugar rush with coke.. and bai nian. dom drove me home at about 12.30 plus. reached home at 1.30am. my parents really gave me alot of freedom.as long as i reached home before morning they do not call me to ask me go home provided that i tell them where i am going for the night. i really love them for trusting me. is really nice of my parents.serious deep down in my bottom of my heart.

bryan! i am sososoosososo sorry that i could not accompany you to timbre on friday.was too tired since i slept at 3plus on thursday night.

and i think small kids are just loveable after yesterday.they are just cute and naive.no motive just plain curious and playfull.if every adult in this world has the mind of a small kid the world will not be so complicated. but on the other hand it will be boring.
every thing has both sides.

if you are planning to avoid me then avoid me for a year. at least i know what you meant as time goes by otherwise i will be like a person with no thoughts. and it will be tiring.

2009-01-21T23:23:00.001+08:00

i just feel like shutting down my brain and run to the nearest island and stay there till next friday.
is madness.

ending loads of projects.

crap.and i am wasting time blogging.

2009-01-12T01:41:00.002+08:00

Is like freaking almost 2am now. and tomorrow i still have class!
but i just want to blog that i meet my group mates.7 times a week.
i see them more than i see my family more.
is like we will meet each other like 15 more hours after today had passed.

and i am still sick. almost for 3 and a half weeks... :( i am going to see my family doctor tomorrow!
and be a good girl and take all the medication properly.

me and my sister has practically been super worn off this whole week. All the photo taking and stuffs and editing of pictures coming out with layout. it really just killed my entire night almost everyday. and on top of that i still have to do my projects even later in the night.

sat when i am back i sat in front of my com and reply emails till i almost fell asleep. just too tired.
today, my sister had a hard time packing her packages because she is super lazy to do it during the afternoon. the accumulation of the packages...
so my mother decide to sacrifice her sleep to help her.

and from midnight to now.i only manage to do one model of PPP. when i am sick is so unproductive. :(
i will skip one day of school and SlEEP.have a good rest.to regain the energy. or else i really cannot take it.

is madness to juggle both at this moment and also when i am sick :(

but i still have to go on no matter what happens..

2009-01-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

i am super craving for chesse fries! all thanks to the PPP search for fastfood!
school was hectic due to projects.
i have been pushing myself hard to do things chop chop and well.
oh and did i mention that i am still sick even though i went to see a doctor which cost me 50bucks?. is like 2 weeks coughing non-stop. madness. and something i got difficult swallowing and breathing.sounds serious! all thanks to the cough mixture that i did not take 3 times daily. and i got scolded by my parents!!!!

alright last friday was super fun! we went sentosa during the evening. but before that there was a stimulator outside vivo. alright being us and desperate to get on it, we went to take a look.and we were told is free.freeeeee..wheeee..of cos we went to take.it was a trip to the ocean.like to different countries by sea. everything was fine.sat inside at the side.and 5 of us squeese at the back.it was already just nice for everyone. and it started.left right down up.and the stimulator starts to emit water. it was big time sprinkling at me.serious.is like raining.how i wish there is a goggles for me. i was shouting like mad.not the ride was too exciting. but is becos the water keep spraying at me. alast dont even wanna bother abt me until he turn his head and look at my face with droplets of water everywhere.sarah sitting beside me is not that good too.water everywhere. dom being the luckiest at the side was not wet at all.
we came out, my whole head was wet.my butt which is the shorts is wet too.

okay.i was really laughing like mad at that time.i think many people are looking at us. my friends are laughing like no one business too.real loud!

went sentosa like evening time and took the luge ride up. it was stress reliefing.the cool air and everything with my friends shouting. felt really relief. then we luge down zoom zoom..from the third to the last position! we caught the fireworks too!

and we played water at the small fountain.is so kid play but we seem to enjoy it so much! is something we should do even we are 18 years old. there is nothing wrong to be a kid!
trained home with loads of ppl. tiring with my wet butt since we complete the dragon trail.

last friday was like water day.everything is so in place and all is like water everywhere for our events! alright i guess if there was no sentosa the percentage of me going to zuok with chelza is 80%. i wanna go on this friday but sat is project day!!!my gosh! and squash after that at a lighter note!

fell terribly sick after friday. see the doctor and sleept for the whole sat!

school was alright.but i did do alot of stupid things today.. and felt a little guilty that we skipped lecture for ice cream.! i think it was quite a loud scene in lecture?.but who cares?.

school tomorrow.it will be fun. back home with more photo shoots.and editing of pictures!

hopefully the change in everything will better than before! pray!!

your image lingers around my head for the entire day! is so tiring not to contact you.

2008-12-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

Since is the last day of 2008. i decide to blog with pictures.
actually the pictures i long ago edited it and uploaded to photobucket.
just pure lazy to blog.

My new year resolution:
1.To study hard for exams and get a reasonable gpa.
2. DO not always think of fun and play.
3. Prioritise the work well.
4. Make my lj more popular.

The End of year events pictures. is super over due.
It sums up year 2008? :D

Financial times are popular in school. and everyone usually does not like to
admit that they subscribe financial times!

My dear Priscilla for christmas mood.

At sakae i guess?. acting cute.

Wonder what is he doing?.
maybe showing off his chest?

My dear priscilla.

At the place that is super cold. but i forgot what is it called?.
ESKI BAR!!

My dp for my psp.

Outside deciding where to go next. but in the end it was home after a long decision.

Kbox.

Group picture. Many pictures were taken. too many to post it up!
Several of them are alittle drunk. we had loads of fun. seriously loads of fun

And my birthday!. it was a surprise! really a surprise.
and i guess bryan spoiled the plan ya?
Thank you guys! and my lovely birthday cake!

In the canteen. Pronouncing what they wrote on the cake

Any idea how to pronounce the last second word? :D

My dear friends!

And carmen wants to be the birthday girl!

And my dear best friends. i really did not know they are coming!

Alastair.

Okay.and i have to carry the ballon everyone in school.

the balloon is dying..so i took a picture to ensure it is locked as a picture!

then something big happened. water leakage through that heavy purple colour thing.

Is sarah. thanks alot for the surprise on my birthday! i had fun!

And mambo night during the first week of holidays.
not much pics taken. :( no grp photo! carmen..ying xuan and dom was outside! :(

Phuture at 9pm where we could see seats while waiting for them to reach.
i always had a hard time pronouncing her name!

Super tired and this is the only place we could sit down.

*pictures not edited for the last 2. :/

whatever it is.holidays are over. is time for work.
Is new year eve. going over to my uncle place during evening. it is always like this yearly for over the past 10 years plus.
i have to reason not to go there for countdown..

year 2008 is quite nice with my poly friends everyday in school. without them i doubt things will be good for me.

welcome 2009 with a positive thinking. all the bad stuffs will go away eventually. Is a brand new start for everything.
no use pondering about what happened in 2008 is over!

woots is a long post! :D

2008-12-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

sometimes i think of the days ahead.
it makes me feel so stressed up. but whats the point.

just take it lightly

2008-12-09T12:36:00.002+08:00

everything is nice except the dress which they provided.
i seriously look like some 1970's women staying in china.
well i have loads of pictures not uploaded yet but i am kinda lazy to edit it since my laptop does not have photoshop anymore :(

i seriously need to spend more time on my lj.
to change everything.the out look. the style.EVERYTHING.!

but all i need is time. which at the moment i dont think i have alot.

i need to rush to go meet my crazy friends for dim sum. but before that to the post office.
hopefully i wun be late. as i saw the msg that the last one to be late has to treat beancurd?.

no idea is it true. but let me guess who is the latest out of all.
it could be sarah. since she is always late.
BUT
it could be alastair. since he stays so far
BUT
it could be me. since i have to go to the PO.
and i take my time to do stuffs.

whatever is it .i cant be late.

i will update more. becos there will be more photo shoots coming up.
is for my family album.my father decide to do it. we have 100 frames more for this yr.
300 frames at one time for the next year.

oh well.

toddles!

2008-11-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

i hate my lousy mouse. it has been causing many problems!!!
MST is like so near. but i just feel like blogging.
pictures? i need time to resize and edits. i have to leave that to after MST.

after MST i will really start to put in effort in my lj. Although it is something i neglect now but my sis is doing a good job now hopefully she will till my mst ends.

I had seen many of the different characters of a person. but to make me accept that true character makes me ponder if i could do it. i mean is so hard. it takes years to reveal it but it requires days for me to accept it. only the heros can do that. or rather only the people who are fliming could do that.
if things still remain the same till end of the year i will give up. i will this time round.

i am super addicted to the batman game in my psp. this is the first time i play my psp from home to school to class to mrt to where ever i go. well. all thanks to my dear alastair. but anyway he is also hook with the game.

i do miss priscilla! well. friends that are far apart, we should even treasure it more izzit it?.
i cant wait for holidays because i am 18 now. i will not be well...
alastair had already told the whole world if you had not heard it you can ask me.

toddles!

2008-11-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

what can i say for my 18th birthday?.
i think is the best moments i ever had for my entire life.

with all the surprises, fun time, calls, happy birthday songs, messages, blowing of candles, carrying the balloon from school to home.

i really could not find a word to describe everything.
there are too many people for me to list down. but one of the many who surprise me is Ms boo and Mr Chng! the 2 teachers are one of the closest teachers i ever had. One is like my mother since young. Another one who had guided me along during my sec school life. I am touched.
and of cos my friends! there are too many to name it.

thank you for all the surprises and messages and calls and presents.
i feel the love everywhere.

i will post the pictures up soon. the pictures are so precious for me.

but now FMKT projects. the birthday fever is over!

2008-11-14T23:58:00.002+08:00

The time is moving so fast that i lost contact with it.
A levels is ending soon.
priscilla is coming to town.
whoo.this weekend i hope it will be busy. i pray hard for it.

Is Alastair's birthday on last thurs. is kinda sad that we did not manage to take pictures :(
but nice memories are always kept in the mind right alas?
is a surprise for him.and hopefully he likes it.
me carmen and dom was like pushing this and that to each other.
but in the end.is like most of the things i brought home huh? and i stayed the furthest.
the "cake" we bought for alast needs to be in the fridge within 1 and a half hour. so ya.
i ran home after i tap out of the station.hahaha.carmen always do that.

we went chomp chomp to eat today. the food was good.the big glass of sugar cane juice is real big and huge.

many things just happened and i myself do not understand what that meant.
oh well. priscilla is coming to town. i have to enjoy every min and second with her. thats why i need to rush all the projects and get it done soon. so it wun be a burden. i miss her alott.!

seriously miss priscilla alot!!!!!

always words heavy. but pictures need time to upload so i guess when i have the time. i will?

i am real real real tired now. my american's next top model ep 12 is not in youtube. i am so looking forward to it.

before i sleep i have to wait for kaine to get me 2 hr for BD. i will just fall asleep on my table and maybe his call will wake me up?.

wednesday hopefully i can sleep over at pris hotel and gossip the whole night!!

:D:D:D:D

2008-11-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

whatever is it. i hate it when people use me.
use me to obtain their ultimate desire.
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things will go well for you. trust yourself. it will end soon.
i am kinda worried everyday.

2008-11-04T22:32:00.003+08:00

i really see how my livejournal grows. it is increasingly more tired to handle it and my school work. i really enjoy sourcing out unique and loveable items for my customers and also to provide the best price. I mean is something worthy to do izzit it?.

projects are pilling up and i am frightened because priscilla is coming to singapore soon. i have to clear all of it to go out and enjoy with her all the 5 days. i seriously miss her alot. i wanna spend every single minute and second with her. this is how much i misses her.!

my blog is getting more and more words well reason is that i have not change my handphone. is still the lousy phone with the horrible camera with it. :(

Is tuesday today, well. as usual met up at moberly to do the usual routine after school. They really make me laugh when i reach there. they are comical. I was feeling tired so i decide to go try and sit down at the massage chair. Well it is quite comfortable. then all of the sudden all of them started walking towards me. i quickly stood up but as usual my reaction is quite slow. then i was forced to lie down on the massage chair and they started to play with the controls. different speeds with different modes. but in the end i end up sitting there to enjoy the 15 min massage time. Then of cos pool session! :D

everyday i wore the necklace and i pray that everything is fine and goes well for you even though i have no idea what will you be having on that day.

2008-10-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

wanted to sleep! comments and e-mails will be replied tomorrow otherwise i will drag till 2am.
is the latest for the days when school started!
but before that i just wanted to blog.

i think i just have friends that are nice to me.
is just a small favour.
i am touched seriously.

after school.i went moberly to play pool.ages since i played. and is the first time i play with elijah!
and we won a game out of 3 games. then train-ed home with jianwei and my drink.
their course consist of laps and they have lapcoats. i imagine myself in the course. with the lapcoats and the glasses. haha. it will be seriously funny!!

is seriously stress relieving when playing pool with them!! whoo...

2008-10-25T16:53:00.002+08:00

i am very sensitive over things. and i have to admit that.
reason being? maybe is because of the lesson learnt previously.
i hate it when i have to look happy when i do not feel happy at all.
it makes me feel tired. so i decide to not to look happy and run away from everything.

friends that do not clique well are also friends. but there is no need to push me to the limit.
i am sick and tired over this and that.
you just want everything that i have now. but every individuals are meant to own different things in your life and that definitely include friends house clothes bags make ups.

it makes me ponder, when i talk to you, are you really even sincere of answering me?
hate it when is fake. but what to do life is like that izzit it?

this week was bad for me. despite of all the many this and thats i seriously fell sick.
painkiller is my best friend for the week. i slept alot but the pain is still lingering on my head.
i wonder if is due to the many things i thought about this week or i am just feeling sick.

is my fault now. i am tired.

2008-10-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

School like just started and i dread for holidays!
school was really tiring for me. the past few days i slept like as early as 7pm.latest is like 11pm. maybe is due to the weird timing that i have to wake up in the morning that causes me to feel so tired after a day in school.
School is fun with my friends. laughter everyday. I mean is really something that is special. :D

life will be better in a way when i am able to put aside things that had already happened.
there is no use pondering about it.

and i seriously did want to go for ballet today.but in the end i heard there were no lessons. oh well. i am still counting the number of weeks i did not attend lesson. but on the other hand, i have already many things awaiting for me to do. my school work. and my LJ. Is tough juggling the LJ itself now. since many of the items need meet-ups every week. going down to restock and change defects for this and that. ballet lessons are now just another burden? is bad for me to say that but the only day i could do things are like on sat. i will consider it seriously again.

2008-10-08T00:12:00.004+08:00

i have no idea why i started digging out old pictures?.
maybe is because i have too many pictures and is slowing down the lappy.

my prom night pictures and many many school mf pictures are all GONE! i have no idea where.
but at least i did develop some of the nice ones out and is still in place. i am going to go buy an album and put it in properly. is all scattered everywhere. thats why pictures cannot be placed in the com.it shld be developed in case of any unforeseen circumstances! like NOW :(

saigin message me like not long ago thanking us for the present we bought for her like 4 years ago.is so long. at that moment i really feel that i miss the memories we share. the 8 of us for student council dance. the last dance of the 4 years in mfss. and the pictures i still have it.is because mr tan took and burn it in a cd fom me! i am seriously happy. many had disappeared :(
we dance quite many songs for different occasions. but this is the best and the last one.
well the others i do not even have a single picture. is all in my brain.

please please do not laugh at them. these are really nice and fun and precious memories we share. is tiring but worth it. we had loads of fun laughter and definitely scoldings by me.

just wanting to share these pictures with the 8 of them!

It was the reheasal.the final ones are like already gone? but is good enough ;)

The girls. FOUR of us :D wearing the same type of costume?

i was sweating :( like ontop of my stomach area? haha!

because i think there were last min steps i have to think and change and teach.

The last part where everyone gathers.

Oh well,u saw that. have to like think of more dance steps and not stand there.

haha.what a relief :D

Mambo or retro? i dono what is it call.but it is the simplest step.

and the dance. :) the 8 of us. we dance a chinese song. with like steps of latin,cha cha,ballet,contemporary,hiphop. Mr ong taught me the latin and cha cha steps so i incoprated into it. had a hard time too. and i scolded them quite alot.

We are definitely scared and like shivering :(

Hit it.

was well taken! and thats saigin and zhiwen!

Trust your partner! had a hard time teaching them this ending! the other 3 pairs dont trust each other initatilly but in the end they did it?

And then is over!

YEEP! i love this. someone thought me this dance step.and i seriously killed the other 3 of them.

THIS ARE SERIOUSLY FUN AND LAUGHTER AND EVERYTHING.

if time were to like travel back, i will definitely have them again. even though there were many quarels here and there. Is really something that i will remember that happened in mfss. something exciting and unforgettable.

HIT IT! i love you all till now!

2008-10-05T14:49:00.004+08:00

School is starting in 7 days from now. and elijah will also be back in 7 days from now.
Priscilla will be back about 2 months from now :(
i am suppose to like read my book.but i have the high temptations to update my blog with the chalet photos.
and next week.i will have to go fix my hair.meet avelyn.meet atikah.meet sarah for shopping.meet my classmates.and hopefully all these things will keep me busy for a week and fun before school starts.

After several thoughts.i feel that what i did was wrong. is bad having u as a subsititue.
i hate it.
let me have a clear mind is not him or her that will change what i want to live. is me.myself.
for all these years, what i really wanted was to do everything well and properly. in fact a perfectionist. but by looking back.everything i did was like half way half way here and there. my cca. my ballet. these 2 are the major examples. all i really wanted is to do all the things well. had I? many gave me alot of encourangements to not give up on my lj. and i did not.is quite a sense of achievement now. regardless of any aspect. thinking of how elijah told me not to give up. really make me feel so glad that he is there for me at that time.

Class Chalet for now.

i was at the bazzar at PS and i was dead tired when i was at the chalet. we reached there around 8.30plusplus? pictures are all taken with like tired eyes. when i reached there.there was this very soft sofa.i pratically lie sat there and fell asleep for a while. Wanted to sleep in the shuttle bus but alast was too fascinated on ehub and the way to go aloha.

well,reached there. is the same chalet as my sec last class chalet of sec4. memories of priscilla the bung club people and classmates just made me think of them. ate beside the pool.went in to the baby playground. play football. went OCH. Mr chng was there. we did drink drank drunk.pris got real drunk. well.i missed them. i have to wait for nov. for the bali trip. for the parties.

is nice izzit it?.i love the pictures. carmen's new toy :D

the pictures are only from carmen's cam.there are many halirious photos in sarah's cam. :DDD

Carmen just loves my bag. hug so tightly!

She decide to do smth different.

and i did that with her without thinking :X

Wanted to take picture. but look at sarah?

So in the end i went to take with the guys.

Is a hard time taking picture with ALAS. madness.dom just jump in to the picture when all is set. carmen snapping before we decide how to take. and it turns out to be one picture that is acceptable. i was eating chocolate due to my gastric :( but it did not help much too.

Class group picture with alot not present :(

i have no pictures of me with dom,sarah and yx. i guess is all with sarah's camera! she did not adjust her cam size.thus the total size is mega. huge big.

oh sarah

oh carmen

oh ying xuan

oh alastair

oh dom

they are my classmates with many fun and laugher. time just flies with them. and we pratically can grow quite high in the streets. School's starting. with my classmates i really look forward to it.

my parents like in the morning started shouting at each other. i did not know since when it started happening. my family is usually fun and peacefull. i guess is becos of the batam trip. my god is just the batam trip. is 2 days my father cannot understand my mother. i hope after my sister tuition everything will settle soon.otherwise it will be a headache for me. it make me wanna run out of the house everyday when things are just so tense in the house.

2008-10-01T22:53:00.004+08:00

i was lazing around one whole day at home.
i dono why i feel so empty.like nothing much for me to do today.
i just need to get out of my house to at least do some shopping or movie or lunch or diinner instead of just heading to the PO.then to my supplier side.then face my laptop.

my bunch of friends like all are kinda busy lately. atikah definitely is busier than me. elijah at uk. all my dear friends are so busy. i cant even call them out. :( well i left 1 more week of holidays.

i am going to watch some shows to ease my boredrem at home at least in the afternoon. since all the packing of clothes and e-mails are done at night.

the flea was not bad. the place is like so hot and stuffy. is the worst flea i ever had in terms of the environment. the place was squessy. there were so many rules.cannot cross that magical white line. no pasar malam style. no here no that. but i just didn't really bother much about the box he insisted me to take it out. i mean i carried here all the way.you cant just tell me to take it out then how can i sell my clothes. how can i earn the money to cover the rent. another lady agreeed with me :D she is a nice person. we manage to talk about everything. nowadays business are kinda competitive. and every collection items have to be seriously sourced and picked and ensure it is nice. takes alot of time and effort.

i love the dress worn on me!

i made a new guy friend. instead quite a number of guys. since during the 3 days there were quite many of his friends came down. as usual we talk to each other to pass time. he sells guy clothing online. but just sstarted. so me and evy the girl that i just know her during the flea are going to help him to advertise at our lj.hopefully things go well for him.
is difficult to start a shop.but it is also to maintain it. everything is difficult.but if i do not try and try to do it well. i am consider a failure issit it?

there are many instances that i got so tired of it. elijah will always hear me complain about this and that. i am his complain queen. but i seriously cannot take the stress when is overloading with this and that. when school starts will have to adapt it well. hopefully is possible.

i have this very bad habit is that i cant keep my own personal thoughts myself for too long. i tired keeping it but in the end the outcome was bad. whatever i need to complain i will have to do it. i know is bad for my friends but i seriously dono what other ways are there for me.

recently my number of bags at home increased significantly. sufficient for me to change one per day for school :X

i have to pack the packages now. since there are a few customers who needs the items urgently so i have to head down to PO in the morning to mail them out.

what is happiness? is it you standing there looking at other people's happiness?
if so, i will rather be someone that has nothing but just being dote by.

2008-10-01T01:36:00.003+08:00

is just pure winnie and priscilla.

i just miss my dear priscilla. seriously missing her. endure more! is going to be over soon! and fun and laugher will be awaiting for us in nov! :DD i love you too!!

2008-09-29T23:35:00.002+08:00

at every moment in my house.the moment i on the laptop and look at my lj.
i smiled to myself. it is quite a sense of achievement. my hard work and all.
but on the other side. every look consist of fear.
as time pass, more fear are added. afraid that items may clash.afraid that the prices are too competitive. afraid that the pictures are not taken nicely.afraid that the availablity of the items are well managed.afraid that i may just scold my sis for not doing it correctly. afraid that the e-mails are not replied promptly.
every collection till now consist of fear. i really have no idea how to get rid of such feeling.

till now, i have not much inspiration of designing my clothes. i wanted one of the dress to be made. but i am just too busy last weeek to plan it out. and i guess i have to drop the idea again. and come up with new ones.

i slept the entire day today. thinking of nothing. post office ladies call me up for lost mails. heading to the post office. it makes me wonder where did i manage to get all the confidence to run this lj. maybe is due to my customers at the flea whom they just came down and merely say a hi or bought things from me. is just something that motivate me alot.

i met girls that are also tending the lj. they are nice people esp evy. we spoke alot. grumble alot. but i admire her spirit.running all herself. no matter flea or online. she is nice.

i wanted to talk to someone but i just could't find one online.so i posted this.
till now my heart beats very fast. i am just scared.

2008-09-27T00:48:00.000+08:00

"winnie you are fierce."

2008-09-26T01:44:00.002+08:00

the flea was alright today.
the chalet was alright today.
but winnie is not alright today.or rather now.

i had gastric pain! is horrible. the food at bbq was light. and i did not had much for lunch.
the journey to chalet was fun. although i was super tired.
the weather was so hot and the flea area was even hotter.

okay.i just enjoyed singing when i feel like. like how i did when i was a the taxi stand waiting for the shuttle bus. " hold your breathe.because tonight will be the that i will fall for you.over again dont make me change my mind. i will lift to ........ " alastair sang with me. but after the word "to" we are unable to carry on. the note is too high.

too stress recently. many things. but for now.the bazzar will be the piroirty. i will try to reply all comments and e-mails and on the other hand run the bazzar well. is tiring. but just 2 more days.it should be fine.

and i will definitely want to enjoy the next week.movie.shopping.everything!

tomorrow will be better. although i am dead tired. with comments not replied because i have to do stock check. is too late to reply them as i will have to search high and low for the availablity of the items. noisy :S so tomorrow morning i will have to wake up even earlier to reply and head down to PS. okay.my hair is dry. sleeping time.

many pictures to upload for the chalet. pictures and pictures. taken quite alot. love my friends to bits and pieces.

and yx and sarah came down to the flea today. :D
tomorrow will be atikah. :D

i am super touch and happy to see my customers and their thank you messages during the self collection for the bags and the customers who went down for our flea. i am very touch. seriously.

SLEEP.is 2am. tmr have to wake up at 9am to do many stuffs.

carmen and sarah gona work for F1. i think they will enjoy themselves?!

:D
:DD

i had decided not to know you more. give up.

2008-09-25T01:10:00.002+08:00

i thought alot.
is abit useless to stuck there in my past.
forget about it and move on.

you resemble much of my past not the person but the thiings that are in you.
is too much.i was shocked too.

who should i tell too?

2008-09-23T23:29:00.001+08:00

i really hope: talk to me on msn since you are online or rather message me since you saw this post.

2008-09-23T23:14:00.002+08:00

prawning was exceptionally fun! tonning outside till 2.30am is even more fun.
the bait that alast took was 14. out of so many numbers he choose 14. or rather he choose that bait 14. is quite funny that like few days back i was thinking about number 14 and now the 14 just came out again.

Prawning was fun.alastair did something stupid to get some prawns to eat his bait. he was talking to the prawns. prawn language.
and at about 12pm i was talking noncense. u noe at that time when i am tired i usually anyhow talk. no sense or rather alastair always call "bimbotic" so as usual he ignore me many times. not once quite alot of times.
Sarah too! at that time she will be a little like me. talk crap time. erm.. i sometimes also nv go reply her? :X okay is the same as what alast did to me.
i had much fun only that i cant stay overnight at dom's house.but is a good choice since i have loads to things to do today.

took pictures but i am pratically too tired to do anytime but just type words. my stuffs are so pack today and tomorrow will be worst. got to prepare for the flea from thurs to sat. 3 days. the new items are just too pretty. the dress that i have been waiting for is here. :D is super duper nice. the combination i really have nth much to say about that. just too preetty. silver and navy blue with solid flower colours. thats the one i love the most.

i will post the pictures up for prawning soon.most prob after the whole flea and class chalet.
Alastair u better go for the class chalet and stay overnight. carmen too sarah too. becos i wanna stay overnight otherwise it will be very boring.

i love my crazy bunch of friends! alastair sarah carmen yx and dom.
and the busy life and everyting will be over soon.it will be better. i have to buck up!!!!! :DD
i have to do it well.

2008-09-20T02:08:00.003+08:00

i had to wake up like 9am tomorrow and pack the packages and head for meet-ups and at 2am i am still up listening to disturbia.
i found another "music atm" :X :X he has every songs that i want! sweet friend is one of them now is jian wei !
jian wei reminds me elijah. and i had like 4 days i did not msn-ed him? either he talks to me and i will be super busy or he will be like appearing offline or went offline.

this few days are really killing me.
any one wants to accompany me to the beach to relief some tension in my mind? :(

and i am totally addicted to this song!!!
every post is like ranting. no proper updates! i guess after the prawning there will be proper updates?

i need some love!

loves,
winnie

2008-09-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

did i mention that i have no idea how to skate?
neither ice skate or skate.
and on 17sept 2008 i manage to ice skate.or rather i manage to stand and skate a little on ice.
all thanks to myself. and of cos my friends. well only alast know how to skate and obviously he will be the one teaching me how to skate. and they claim that tall people very difficult to skate properly. hmm. any comments?
:D

i fell twice. and after the whole session i found a blue black on my leg. a big one. no one believe me that it is a blue black. like how do i suddenly get a blue black on my leg. but anw i really had a blue black on my leg. i guess maybe i am too excited to see the pillar , wall or barrier or what ever that is called?. then i fell,and of cos hit my leg :( thats explain much on the blue black.
when i was there, i kept thinking the scene if it was my friend with me. i thought a little, this explains why i am aways staring into the air and standing in no where on the ice alast!

and i found out that my mother dislike me to stay overnight at people's house. she claim that it will be very troublesome for your friend parents. but in actual fact there is another reason for it.a hidden meaning. so in the end, prawning for monday night only. i am quite excited to prawn? i hope i can at least prawn some and maybe bbq it and eat.!
it will be a busy week next week. with many events. bazzar,chalet,meet-ups. it will be a tiring week i guess.
and tomorrow will be another tiring day. but is my smallest sister birthday! so i will have to ensure that tomorrow will be a fun day for her no matter what stunes i do. :D

happy birthday mummy and daddy.

17sept and 18sept

happy birthday sherlene peng!

19sept

my mummy loves the wallet we bought for her. and she says that we now go for the brand now. oh well, i have no comments over that sentence. i am going to head down to vivo to get presents for my small sister. at toys r us. carmen thought me how to spell them! :D

good night! tomorrow will be a better day!
or random!!!! i have another blue black again.obtained from some where in my house :(

2008-09-17T03:02:00.003+08:00

my dear priscilla,
you are so far away from singapore. got to say i seriously miss you alot.
there are ups and downs while you are in school. everything is possible :D

i look forward to the bali trip with you.
i look forward to the arrival of yours in singapore and leaving 1 day before my birthday :(
but is :)
i look forward to your summer holiday-party.singing.high-ing,unglam acts. waiting for me to do it with you!

LOVE YOU!
take care over there!

2008-09-15T00:16:00.002+08:00

For the past few nights i am so engross with all my dvds dramas at home.
to the extend that i stayed up late at night to watch finish.
it is just too tempting for me to watch the entire cd up. like 4 eps in one go!

and thus my sleeping hours are just horrible.i am starting to be like sarah.the girl who sleeps like 5am in the morning.

i have several random thoughts in my mind.
-my life how should it be? i just feel i am afraid that i will be stuck like in the past again.
-i am very happy to meet my customers face to face. and definitely their smiles.
-when will i be able to have what i always wanted?.
-does branded goods lift the status of a person?
-my daddy,mother and my small sis bdae is like on wed thurs friday.how should i help them celebate?.
-meet-ups for this week will be a blast and tiring.

these are just part of my sea of thoughts. i dont really think them in detail. but just some impt ones. I am busy everyday in the day with all sorts of things. if i were to work i think i am just faint of overworking. my grandmother went back.at least now is easier for me to eat sit and joke around at home. and i think my body is not fuctioning as well as before.

oh well,just some ranting post again with the nice music by lush..

2008-09-03T22:58:00.005+08:00

i hate it when crunchyroll loads my video super slowly.
but at a lighter note,i am able to blog rite?
i was sleeping this morning like around 11am. then my sister woke me up.
"winnie jie jie your call!"
oh well,i got selected for china itp. i have mixed feelings at that point of time!

put that aside.i blog previously that i had loads of things to complain and post and whatever.i am going to do it since my show loads like forever at this time.

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Last thursday,after the last paper.ECM. we when down to town and to dempsey. the place that we wanted to go badly before exams. if was fun.i saw Ms tay my secondary chinese teacher day! my friends thought she was my friend. oh welll,i told her.she was like "do i look so young?" we when dempsey to celebrate my dear girl sarah birthday! there was quite little people there. we manage to surprise sarah since she had no idea we are all along discussing of what to do. ;) we are good actors ;)) her birthday cake was a mango pudding.we wanted to get her a proper one.but we could't get it on time. so decided to drop the idea. AND, the route down and up dempsey is quite scary. i got shocked by sarah with her loud scream when i mention about snake. we saw a snake when we got down the bus. it was a small one. dom shouted,"what the fcuk"then it glides away.so now when you see a snake, just shout that the snake will auto glide away.! dempsey is so dark with no street lights. but it is a relaxing and nice place!
my dear friends whom i dearestly love their accompany!

Sarah happy birthday! ;)

i was feeling quite down at the beggining of the day (like 15min before exam!) as i did not expect such stuffs to happened.i seriously feel that i should not have seen it with my own eyes.it breaks my heart when i see it. but i have to face the reality. is a fact.nth changes it. even it happens to the real you i will have to quietly accept it even though in my heart it really hurts alot. i am trying to adapt it. give me some more time.

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On friday.
went shopping bought a new wallet.this time round a pink one with gold hardwares. and after thinking after buying.i just find it alright. ;( but is still my precious belongings.my grandmother is here in singapore. just finishhed her operation like today, wednesday. suffering from some backbone cracks that causes her legs to feel weak and pain becos of the nerves.sickness is scary!
;) but get well soon grandma!

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On saturday is MAO birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAO!

TAKE MANY MANY CARES!

i will go out soon with you.dont worry no one will come finding you since i have no suitors or bf now. rest 100% assurance.

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SUNDAY! my dear elijah going uk for 6 weeks. so head down to the airport.

stay healthy and take care there!
took the bus home with jianwei and his friends. the bus ride was jnsfn;LNFA.NGLANNJFLSDN IRRITATING and scary. that causes me to have a phobia in boarding a bus. but i got home safely. jianwei lives super near to my house. so i am going to call him when i have no one to eat dinner or lunch with me at hougang :) it seems like i am making use of him? shit! :X

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TODAY NOW!

is really a long post..
but i am going to end now.i have e-mails to clear and reply!
i am going to end it with my dearest small sister pictures. MY sweet friend LOVES her alot!

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET FRIEND!

TURN 18TH AND BE A GOOD PERSON!
:D
hope you enjoyed your day even though u told me u didn't want to go out :D
enjoys!

your birthday present from me.will be my small sis pictures.the pictures are so cute and irrestiable. :D when i meet you then maybe i could buy u a treat since i have no idea what to get for you?

so heres your present :

the holidays, i am feeling so empty now.
i always look forward to the holidays but not now anymore.

now most importantly, i have to concentrate on my blog and make it well. not anyhow now. i am serious. even though nowadays is not bad.but i cant afford to let it topple again.

loves,

winnie

your holidays are ending. meet me for lunch/dinner.

i will be just equally happy and contented.

2008-09-03T01:12:00.002+08:00

i have many things to complain and say and blog about.
and i always rank blogging as the last.
i am stuck with my show,golden princess.it is super tempting to like watch finish within 1 day.

i went to dance lessons today.it was teacher's day yesterday. we wrote a card for my teacher in chinese.and she had a hard time figuring out my chinese name. time flies,12 years?.she is seriously like my second mother. and she told me that she had pictures of me during the grade,pre=primary. with the cute bun at the back. and pointe and holding the tutu skirt.
i had the picture with me but it is in quite a bad condtion.

blog soon with many many pictures.

2008-09-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

hello world.
my exams are like finally over.
i have pictures to upload! but wait till i upload and receive everything first then upload
i seriously do not have the mood.
the bus ride from airport seriously pissed me off. hate it. then i reach home. hais...

i blog tomorrow again! have to reply e-mails. and i can only access to one per time.
either gmail or blogger

;D

2008-08-26T23:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED SARAH ANG ang

so sorry i was too busy yesterday and i really forgot to wish you happy birthday. So..this post is catered for you! Sarah is as wild as me.as crazy as winnie.as mad as winnie.as nonsense as winnie.as bitchy(sometimes) as winnie.as bimbo (sometimes) as winnie. Always as tired as winnie. one longg list.. is never ending. i dono, i just love sarah.
but i forgot your birthday yesterday ;( *********guilty

Get to know you like this semester. We got this 'ting ting' thing that brought us together?and we started talking about everything under the sun? We really had loads of fun together in school and after school.

and is 18 years old for her! mine is like super long.legal means u are old le hisarah! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!
I JUST LLLLOOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEEE YOU!

LOVES,
WINNIE

2008-08-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

i feel super super bad now that the bags are delayed. there are only a certain amount that the supplier is only able to provide me 2 weeks from now. well. i was super pissed off by it too since she told me that a top up of orders will be possible and it will also arrive in 2 weeks time.now it turn out to be. hais.. i am really very sorry to all the customers.

i seriously feel so down now. hais.

and i am so excited about the after exams events.
so now the mundane stuffs first.

2008-08-22T01:46:00.002+08:00

I manage to stay awake for almost 24 hours.
and i am really dead tired.brain shutting down.everything is not in normal state now.
now i found out why i am super not tired just now. because, MY ROOM CELLING LIGHT IS ON AND I TIE UP MY HAIR.
seems like i AM studying.environment for studying.

faints,i wonder how am i going to wake up tomorrow to study FA with my sarah ang.
anyway!!!!!!! BFI is finally over..i just love the feeling that is over..oh well the paper, i trieed my best le.. and hopefully it turns out well.

2 more papers to go and it will be holidays.
i really want to get myself something to like reward myself. this few days stress with my school work and my lj. i am a workaholic..

my sweetfriend say i do and say are always opposite. come to think about it quite true too.but now i am super firm with my decision made.so i really hope what i say and wat i do tallys now ;)
American next top model winner was not chantel. i love her pretty eyes.

AND i just got a call from carmen..and we are speaking to the laptop..is super fun..can call thru msn..hahah..we can hear each other clearly!!! :)

carmen just loves the msn live. and i am loving it too.many cool sounds. ;)
carmen cheang!!!!!!!!!!!

loves,
WINNIE

2008-08-17T23:54:00.001+08:00

it is super freaking tense and stress.

2008-08-14T01:58:00.006+08:00

12.08.08
So at 12.08.08.. the crazy bunch of people went SENTOSA because we did not want to waste the $3 ticket to sentosa provided by the organizers of hooked. so..at the last day of the expiry date we head down to SENTOSA..

we took the tram and reached the beach... (picture is above)

we took turns to pout..

it was super super hot..we played beach volleyball with the ball found at sentosa. BEACH volleyball is pretty nice to play although we anyhow play it?.. the ball was flying here and there..
well..
decided to slack awhile..suntanningg..cam whore...

and then carmen shouted, "winnie do 10 poses for me to take"
being my manzyer..i have to obey her..so..she took more than 10 poses..and this are randomly picked!

BTW.. let me introduce my manazer first..is carmen!

she has to vet this post first..and i am suppose to blog this post ASAP..so i tried my best to hurry! :)

and then..sarah grew rather insane..

and definitely..being winnie.. i will also be as insane as her..
there was a video too.the both of us with the 5 different pose. ! ask me if you want to see!

and the rest..

AND SUDDENLY...
had a picture with YX.but my manazer say is not very nice the colours.so took out :)

the black clouds started to travel to sentosa...well..being us..we hurry pack our stuffs and run to the nearest shelter..
we stayed at the toilet to clean up..this and that...
and we stood outside the toilet to figure out where should we go next..
then..decision made! off to queeue for the tram..
cam.whore again!?
the look of........

the tram is always PACK..so we decide to go FC4..
*note: the following paragraph are compulsory by my manazer. there should be nth missing manzyer!

so..we went to FC4

there are no people..

we are sitting around.

beside us..there is a pool of water.

there are dried leaves on the ground beside WINNIE and manazer

It should be from this tree beside us.

YUP..manayer! i did not miss any part?.if yes..do e-mail me and i will re-do it.. :)

hahaha...okay..while sitting there..called alastair.. asked him if he could make his way down to chinatown to join us for dinner..aparantly he says he needs to finish memorizing his 12qns of pscychology for his test?. wonder why is it 12 qns not topic? hmmm.. crap crap crap.. and he refused to join us unless we head down to Jurong East.. which is like another part of Singapore?.

so..when the rain stops..we walk back to the tram station..

OFF to VIVO CITY..the ride back to vivo city..
i had no idea what are they doing..

reached VIVO city and ATE dinner.. i was super famished that i was the first to finish the food!

it is quite a rare thing to see me finishing my food FIRST!

while hi dom is in the To Let.

after that hi dom went home. 4 of us went down to chinatown to eat tian tang.. :)

A group picture for the sentosa trip!
i could not get the pictures from yingxuan.
so....

i simply love them..
life will not be complete..wonderful.happy.loved. WITHOUT them!

i had many goals for this holiday..
this includes my precious website that i built it up with me and my sister's bare hands.
i have no other time to think of the rest..
i know you are reading the blog..but i just have to say.
i am just tired. pure tired.. i do not know what to do next anymore.

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today! 13.08.08.
woke up super late.. well. i will also wake up late tomorrow and head to the post office. then slack (which i have not done it for a very long time)..

met up with atikah today to chompchomp.. she was playing tennis at nyjc..
knew alot of things from her.many people changed.some became totally different..
the worst case scenerio of a teenager are also seen.

went to eat mac and ice cube..super fattening.but who cares. we just need a place to talk our hearts out! oh ya..anyway.chompchomp mac ran out of ice today and no ice cream was serve.. because no more ice?. is dam funny.. no ice at mac.. they are going to serve coke without ice after we bought our food..

my sweet friend got drunk. or rather partially drunk.started asking me if bus 82 reaches the house.. haha. i have no idea? but anyway..got home safely..so is fine!

shall go to bed now since i finished blogging..and my manazer should be quite please with the sentosa post?.
do e-mail me if you are please or unhappy about it!

:)
:))
:)))

i wanna say that again, "I LOVE MY CRAZY BUNCH OF PEOPLE"

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE..

is such a long post..i dont think i will be blogging for the next few days because i wun wanna see this post at the bottom of the page..

oh yes..good luck to alastair for his never ending tests for this week.! :)

GOODIEE NIGHTSS

2008-08-13T13:45:00.004+08:00

while waiting to head to the PO. well, i am super lazy to bring the key out.so i have to wait for my mum to come back before i go out. : X
so...i went to read brainBOBO blog
After reading brainBOBO blog..i got this strong urge to look through the pictures at sentosa yesterday.
i just cant stop while smiling to myself. some pictures are really 101% funny. but i need all the pictures so that i can blog properly..carmen well, she accidentally pluck the cable out..so the pictures are not completely transfered to me yet :(

2008-08-12T23:43:00.003+08:00

SENTOSA is dam fun!
played beach volleyball! football. sun tanning. whee...
and i am dead tired now.

i am suppose to blog about today. my manager spent quite alot of hard work to take pictures for me to blog.! and i am instructed to blog a super long post :)))

so..coming up soon.. sentosa post! a super duper long post with pictures here and there and random words and sentences.

meeting my dear girl tomorrow! whee..chompchomp tmr too! :))
and my sweet friend! your blog really. i thought u have already change your url.is quite a long time ago too!! and u have a habit to change your url and e-mail..so...i know u are reading it.but okay.. i am sososo sorry! ..

*i just cant get the heartbreaker song rite? .. i am sosososo sorry?. i am soso sorry? ..

enough..i am going to bed when my crazy friends sent me pictures.is a dam good weather to sleep too!...

WHEEEE!!!!! check back for sentosa POST! :)

i love my crazy friends!

2008-08-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

CRM down.i left 3 more exams..
tomorrow off to sentosa for some sun and beach and play and laughter.
but alastair is not joining us..got to study for all his testtssssssssssssss...

i have none left for this week.?.
but i have a bigger mission and is to work my way to get a new kate spade bag?.

random thought now," sometimes i am really jealous that people are loved by their boyfriend "

tons of pictures to upload actually.but for now..sleep is vital.
there will be a major change of my blog layout SOON.

good night world.

2008-08-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

i had tried all my utmost effort in it..and i really hope it has an effect..
I could see an slight increase..
is really tough.but i have to..otherwise all my presvious efforts are wasted.

ultimate stress.

2008-08-08T23:53:00.002+08:00

today is 8.8.08.. Eight.Eight.Zero Eight. well alastair SOMETIMES will say it as
egg.egg.zero egg. :X

today was quite useless to attend school.i attend bfi lesson abt 30 min late. like within 5 min..she say..alright u all can leave now.. iwas like? now can leave?...
so as usual when to a place and slack..and this time is the moberly cafe...
i was rather stupid and not blur and ...... today.. my crazy bunch of people will know..! i am pratically tired and stress becos my gems test like so i never study much.. but overall is alright..becos i did the bb quiz!

updates on the shopping blog tomorrow! a pretty nice collection.. i love all of it! got to wake up and do the pictures.. serious..continuous of sleeping at 2am everyday make me feel so worn off and ultra tired!..

crm study mode for exam!

2008-08-07T23:17:00.002+08:00

one more gems paper and the weekends will be here!
but the weekends will be for CRM. i sleept like 2am everyday for this week. including today.which i am suppose to study my gems..

when to watch money not enough 2.was pretty nice..and when i am back home, i am dead tired.but i will definietly study my gems..becos i guess is needed?.

but.i am just too excited that my parents allow me to go bali with priscilla at the end of the year!. i am sososososo waiting for it.. is only me and her..i just cant imagine the life with her and me in the villa.. wheee... although the last time we went there we only had dinners together! :)

BALI-end of the year sounds so encouranging for me! ;))))

i miss priscilla.. just wanting to meet her soon.

my gems test! back to studying mode ;X

2008-08-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

i got scolded for bringing my parents to hk cafe.and they dont serve nice food.
is like my fault for opening hk cafe?..
then in the end i am unable to finish the plate of noodles. and winnie is quite hungry now.

hais..and this cause me to feel bad and thus not allowing me to study MA well. hate it!
i shld have decide to eat at home and wait for my parents to take away! !

MA is killing me now. got the very strong urge to go to bed now.

2008-08-03T01:48:00.003+08:00

is kinda stupid to allow me to sign in one account at a time
either blogging or gmail..
so i have to make a fast post since i have e-mails to reply!!
it stop just now..is back again..

well, brain dead now.. was busy with the pictures then rwps ppt..
i would like to say that i went swimming today and sun tanning! sun tanning is the best part!
i have loads to say..but leave that to tomorrow..
and i have to get back to my gmail..and defintely sleep too!

need to study econs like today for the monday test!!! i have to!!

2008-08-02T14:18:00.002+08:00

i need to do an eye extension.
my eyes are small and with the constant sleeping during the late night, my eyes are getting even smaller and my eye bag is getting thicker. this is so teribble.

i am super sorry to all my friends who are scolded by WINNIE! really sorry. :X
i am mad enough to call u all and started scolding. hais.

just place the bad stuffs aside.
i went down to town yesterday! with carmen and "hi DOM". ate coffee bean chocolateee cakee...
whee is like so niceeee.. then i hope in to zara and bought stuff..oh btw i did went to borders to search for my sister's friend birthday present. the youngest one i mean. i got a hard time looking for it! borders is ULTIMATE biggg.. but, the books are placed in the entire shelf instead of the small shelfs. carmen bought the book for her cousin too! the book is cool enough for primary school child to read. i will bring the book to school on monday! i mean my sister has loads of it.

on the train, my crazy bunch of people started planning the holidays.
every week we will do a kind of sport. and we thought of ice skating.SQUASH, golf, swimming..

and we were like, "our exams are not yet over we talk about the holidays." but we are just too stressed up by work.
next week, 2 presentation,2 test. enough to kill me..thus i skipped ballet and rest at home..gonna update my shopping blog too. pictures snapping later.

i am enjoying lush 99.5..
a long week ahead again.. winnie will not be a silly winnie again.

2008-07-31T01:39:00.002+08:00

well,nth much..just that i went for china itp interview and CRM qanda session.
and the highlight of the day is to meet elijah after school. i basically flood his phone.with 13 miss calls.
highest record for him. he was having tests and i called him for like 13 times and disturb him during his test. imagine the phone constantly vibrating.oh my i feel so bad!
okay.as usual. we talk alot and alot.but the session seems super short. we have super loads of stuffs to say.
random alright,: while i was standing with him, and i was talking to him at the mrt platform. the reflection of me while i am talking to him really shows that i do alot of actions while i talk. oh well.now i believe my bunch of crazy people. is true, winnie speaks with alot of actions.

oh yes, in school i played the Mac book game in alastair laptop. we were crazy. we were basically screaming in the fc. BUT, the game is meant to scream. the louder u scream the longer the base will be.
i am so going to play it tmr again!!!

off to sleep! another day of school.

2008-07-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

i cant stop complaining my toes are seriously seriously in pain.
is fcuking pain!
i have a big blistier on my first toe. and the rest are just red.
well, if he continues to teach, all my 9 toes will also be identical to the first toe. ;( a big big one! :(
3 toes currently seems to be emerging into blistiers, is red red!

hais.the training is not tough, is just that i cant get use to it.
i had never did a turn with my pointe shoes before, and neither had i worn a pointe shoes for more than 45 mins. killer. is worst than wearing heels. at least heels are just a portion! mine ;(
10 toes include the NAILS. which i super regret not cutting them before going for dance :(((

he kept calling us,"gu niang" while, is true, we are.
but he is a good teacher. nth to be scared of actually. just show him " i have the confidence", he will not be say you,but instead praise you?

an achievement, " i did a rather nice double turns today! " quite happy thou! but in return, my toes.

i really wish to wear slippers(its more comfy) tmr, BUT i have mock presentation. oh well, i have to resign to fate.
i really could't walk properly with my sandles just now.
how do i get home?. JESSLYN sent me home. this is smth good about driving! :)

i just cant stopp complaining but i am dead tired now.

2008-07-26T18:21:00.003+08:00

the lessons i have to attend this coming monday!
i am supppppeeerrr sccccareeeddd now :(
is called the free class, because the teacher is from another school. and we do not need to pay for his lesson. yes, is a HIM. supperr stress now. ;( ;(

i have to tie up my hair, make sure not a single fridge topple down to my eyes!
and i heard, you will be very tired after his lessons!

some one please provide me with some ......... :(

2008-07-26T14:06:00.002+08:00

i woke up like 12 today?. slept at 12 plus after atikah stop msg-ing me. means she fell asleep.
carmen , "and theprincessofall recently has updated alot" YESH! this sentence allows me to on my laptop and blog now!
i am super lazy to start any of the projects like now! since i am not going out at night, i am going to camp the night to finish up all the projects. and i have ballet later.

oh well, saturday is here again. is a fast week this week. but i guess the next few weeks will be more stressfull?. presentation and reports deadlines?
on a lighter note, yesterday we didn't manage to go demsely. because, alastair drove to school, and the road there is quite scary. small and "no law". so we waited for dom and alastair to finish their project. we waited for like 1hr 30 min plus in school?. off we went to city hall in alastair's car?. the journey was alright! safe driver thou! " 4 lifes under his hands"..

went to eat, since we are all starving.. it took pretty long for them to serve water. and i mean plain water! the food was alright.
while waiting, we were talking stuffs that make everyone laugh!
actually i have to idea what did we talk about. because, after a good laugh, when repeated again, it will not be as funny as before. so, the reason for us to laugh will usually not be remembered but instead, we are sure that we had a good laugh.
friday is always very fun! with them..
ate ben&jerry ice cream then on the way back, me carmen and dom got quite mad.
winnie, " make me more high can? "
carmen, " yes, your high-ness and .... "
winnie stunned?
carmen, " winnie find your frequency, is over there" she ramdomly pointed a place.
winnie "huh?"
and i nearly fell because "oh well" not going to say, and dom behind me did not even wanna save me. luckily carmen pulled me. or else, yeah,winnie will be on the floor laughing for help! now i noe who ismy friend when i am in danger! *just joking dom!*

before they left for the bus, carmen, " bye, your highness!"
winnie was once again stunned. anyway, carmen and me has the same frequency! carmen u better say yes! :)

sat alastair car to chinatown then train-ed home! on the way there, luckily we managed to find the way there since the exit from the car park is quite familar to him. and on the way there, fm98.7 played take a bow and is the number 1 hit song! whee. on the song louder and started singing a little.

i told you! friday, is always fun with them! or rather, everyday is fun with them!

tmr, 1 pm at esplanade library project!
now.i am late for ballet!

*the above conversation with carmen is rephrase because i only knew the skelton of it! i forgot all the words me and her said.

i love them!

2008-07-24T17:48:00.002+08:00

i did not attend school today?
reason being. i feel i am sick but not exactly really sick. had slight fever last night but i had a terrible headache from yesterday till today morning. :( i rather have fever than headache! because headache is really something that can kill people. and now, my mother told me that i am too "heaty" oh well, i guess so too, because my head and gums are painfull. well this are signs of heatness!

i slept at 8pm last night and woke up like 9.30am this morning. so i decide not to go school since i cant make it for MA tutorial. ;(
atikah called me just now. oh well, is quite a long time since i spoke to her.
tomorrow FA test. cashflow. just started studying. my projects are still lingering here and there. really sorry to my group mates if i had not done anything becos all i did for the past 2 days is sleep due to my headache ;( hais..

hopefully the headache will disappear like later in the night so that tmr i can do my fa test and study later.

good luck to all my classmates for FA test tmr!
and i can go demsley tmr too! hopefully my classmates are able too
since carmen said "not sure yet" ;(

note: must remember to watch the mummy with atikah! or else she will definitely kill me! since i did not wait for her for the dark knight ;x

i think i am going to sleep again because my head is still PAINFULL!
any idea how to stop it? ;((

2008-07-23T00:08:00.002+08:00

i felt sweetness and closeness.
it is defiinietly true to have more close friends than friends.

random, on sunday, while i am rushing with whatever i am suppose to finish,
2 random things happen that made me smile for a moment.
1. benson use zhiwen phone to call me, they are asking and ask me if i i wanna join them. started to talk crap on the phone. i dont know, at the moment at least it made me feel a little relief after a tense long day.
2. Elijah sent me this random MSM. alright is ultimate funny.

yeep! thats all, i guess tomorrow will be a long day again.since i cant study my FA now, due to the headache and whatever that is in my mind swirling around.

alright,we are now comparing who is more popular in secondary school! haha.thats what i like about my sweet friend. i can talk whatever i feel and like without having to think of the consequences. opps,is it correct?

anyway.
i am alright now. life has to go on.
i will survive through this 2 weeks.

and friday, ben and jerry at the super nice place-demsely! gonna chill out with ice cream!

I LOVE MYSELF!

2008-07-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

i have to be independent. not to rely on others
sometimes i think,the closest person to me should be a non-living thing.
becos a non-living thing do not respond to u whenever u are crying,happy or wat so ever that u are feeling.
this is great izzit it?. at least they are there for u.at anytime.

i am super tired, i have tests,projects, pack stuffs,reply and check e-mails.
i do shout often at home, but if things really get out of hand, i will lose control of my emotions.
thinking i have so many things to accomplish makes me feel so stress-ed up.

my sister has her N levels, i have my tests and projects which i feel is equally impt, and why on earth i am also at the fault. i study so far from home, she study super near.
wanted to study FA, but i got to do a meet-up, and i am having a split headache now after the scolding from my parents, they just dont hear me out. my fault for screaming. but does anyone wanna hear me out?. is quite a difficult job for me as a sister.
help me up in the stuffs to allow me to do finish other things at a faster pace.
is not once or twice is almost 4, 5 times in a week. i get enough of this.
i need my own life, i cant possibly restrict myself in this house. i am going to be 18.
and i guess my life is just spelled as "s-t-r-e-s-s" either home or school.

what do i live for actually? why do i have to put in so much effort in all the stuffs i do? and sometimes in return i do not get anything at all but instead more of the negative sides.

this is enough.

winnie needs you, where are you?

2008-07-15T00:22:00.003+08:00

i am indeed stress over projects.
i have no time for others.
i really need to change the layout of the web
i really need some time for myself to breathe
i need you to hear me rant
i need you in everything
i need you, where the hell are you?
i try to picture wat is going on.

i suddenly think, in this life, who are the ones that are really close to me.
and is this sufficent for me to not regret?
will i regret in the future if i do not join any activities in school?
is this what i really want?

winnie just needs you.

2008-07-13T15:17:00.004+08:00

Today is Sunday, the day that i could just hide in my tiny mini room to do the stuffs i love to do! but it will not be long,because, projects are just hindering my way. i am just pure lazy to go out today! business is not as good as the previous times. but i have to have this positive thinking because, business and love has to go on! this while week is just projects and a little of outings with my dearest mates. Yesterday, projects meeting is quite fun too! we did work and gossips alot too! is just pure fun! At burger king, there is this bird that flew in and we were just too afraid that the droppings of the bird would land on our head. so normal human reacction will definietly be, take a piece of paper and start covering your head. Without thinking we did that! nothing happened to us. but the bird fainted. It flew and knocked onto itself on the glass panel. it fflew to the top of BK and i guessed it fainted there? because, 15 mins later we still did not manage to see the bird flying.

after projects,we made our way to the Singapore flyers. took the shuttle bus, a super cool shuttle bus too! and the preview of national day prade was there too! dinner at popeye with alastair and yingxuan! we managed to watch the fireworks! it was just beautiful. and while i am walking to the toilet i managed to saw the airplanes flying to form a heartshape. it is just stunning beautiful. A heartshape formed in the blue wide sky! As usual, we did take pictures while we were walking along the Singapore river and at the flyers. but the pictures are with carmen, mind you, carmen takes 3 working months to upload the pictures ;)) so i have to wait for her to allow me to post here!

And back track, pictures while we were at paula ubin! i just ramdomly picked it! so that i do not need to upload so many pictures ;)

Sarah with her "ah jie" dream! i guess i just love her the way she is. it was a group picture at the magnicfient view of water,hills, and green trees
and at the bump boat heading there

Alastair and Sarah are my BFF, but i guess they will not believe me that i treat them as my BFF. becos? (inner joke?)

whats more than us? where we just purely make loads and loads of noise everywhere we go!
there are many many many candid pictures and VIDEOS of me. i will have to stay away from carmen's camera next time.

projects time! and a little of sleep later.
and the packing of packages later too!

school will be fun again this week! i just have that strong feeling!

maybe in life we should learn how to accept criticisms and not broad over it. just be yourself, and do not worry about what people thinks about you! i live for myself.

2008-07-12T00:48:00.002+08:00

it is going 1am on saturday morning. here i am munching my gummy bears bought in the afternoon before i watch movie. We went to watched the strangers. alright i shall not go into more for the movie as i am afraid! yes winnie is always afraid of horror movies! and i am really real brave to watch today!

i am able to blog because? i am waiting for my pictures to load into the laptop.
decided to do up the pictures tonight then i am able to do projects tomorrow without having to worry about this and definietly have a little fun tomorrow too! ;)

i have loads to say about the time i spend with my lovelies. trip to paula ubin (and i had an injuiry on my knee), ice cube, the random movie outings. many many pictures too!

i can feel that the damage to my time will be more with the number of projects i am having now. i only have 7 days in a week and i got to squeeze everything into the 7 days a week. i eventually feel quite tired now. but it will be worst for the next week?.

my pictures are fully uploaded. now, time for the picture fixing time!

i will blog soon with pictures once i am free!
on the other hand, i am blog when i am feeling stress. ;(

tomorrow, project meeting at raffles place at 11am. but before that,as usual! trip to postoffice!
good luck to me!

2008-07-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

i am having a horrible tummy ache NOW ;(
it is either i laughed too much today and had all the air inhaled into my stomach or
i ate something wrong!
is really pain! ;(

okay put that aside. i finally got some pictures that we had taken a couple of weeks ago.
so presenting.
my new half of my classmates for year 2 and year 3. i beg u had read alot about them in my blog?.(although i rarely update :X )
thats a picture on carmen's birthday. her orientation pack :)

had loads of fun with them everyday in school.laugh at each other. and we stayed back for project till 6pm. from 8am to 6pm. first time in our entire life in SP. but we had loads of fun and did constructive work!.
we booked a room in the main library.
many funny stuffs happened. erm..mispronnuciation of words. * i found out that when i am tired, i cant think properly then i will anyhow speak, thats include mispronnuciation of words.* is kinda bad. so my friends will place me under the ASS.

i cant go on anymore.wanted to type more. BUT, i really wanna lie on my bed now and rest. my stomach is killing me. this entry take me 1 hour to finish it. i have been running to the toilet for the past 1 hour ;((

will update soon!

2008-06-30T23:49:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dearest priscilla!

a big

HAPPPPPYYYYYYY

BIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRTTTTTHHHHHHHHDDDDAAAAAAAYYYY

u are way so far from me,but everything still does not change! my sweet best friend!

could you drop by a visit soon?

cos i really miss you!

by the conversation you talk to me u sounded quite happy for your birthday celebration!

so is fantastic!

love you!

you are another year older :( or :)

i misses priscilla!

------------------------------------------------------------------------happybirthday! pris!

alright, sunday night was a long night, i pratically stayed up late to watch show. kinda stupid and i have monday bluessss.. according to carmen, her definition is?. erm..forget it actually i forgot wat she said after a good laugh for the ENTIRE DAY!

i cant imagine we laughed and say funny stuffs from school to mrt.but i swear,they are real fun people. i cant imagine school life without them. they are like my essential daily dosage.

okay,does that sentence sounds rite?.

but anw, get smart the movie is super nice. i really just loved that show.stupid in a funny way and sometimes, stupid in a stupid way! okay. it will be a long week ahead,with tutorials and projects piling.and my update of my shoppingblog! and my dramas.

so.i am off to bed now although i told myself to get to bed like 1 hour before?

dead tired.!

i would like to stress again. I MISS AND LOVE PRISICLLA!

happy birthday!~

good night everyone!

2008-06-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

i did say i want to bring my blog back to life.
and i am proud of the things i had done to my wardrobe. threw 3 packs of clothes away. and it is so breathable now!
okay just 10 min ago or rather 15min my sis started doing her stupid antics while i was snapping pictures. like ramdomly.
first, promoting my new wardrobe then drop dead. while photoshopping pictures she even wanted me to add red colour to act as blood. cute little her.

anyway, i have not done much mugging. told the whole world i will mug but in the end wasting my time everywhere on every stuffs.
what ever thing happened i really tot it was just a dream when i woke up. but when i checked my phone. gosh. and is killing my life now.

any way back to my mugging session?. got to head down to take new hot stuffs for the next collection As MY SIsTER INSISTED it.

2008-06-18T14:11:00.002+08:00

whenever i gain on something i will definietly lose something precious and important for me.
whats happening to winnie?
i have to reconstruct my life again.

life is really unfair. i am just tired of it.
let me sit and ponder about it.

*slaps

2008-04-20T16:50:00.002+08:00

school was real fun everyday
i should stress school was VERY fun on thursday during the 4 hours break.
I pratically laughed till i had no strength to get onn with anything after i reached home.
and is not only me,sarah laughed till her tummy is giving her aches too.

;)
i am looking forward to school.

2008-04-11T03:48:00.001+08:00

DO NOT SAY SORRY, MAKE TIME FOR IT!
how can i not love you anymore?
this is really killing me.

2008-04-10T00:03:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.
i feel i am rather random,updating like so randomly ;X
okie,i do not know why i am freakly busy all the time.!
well, the past 4 or 3 days or so i had been either sitting infront of the computer photoshoping pictures OR downstairs taking pictures!
this time at shopahoantics is really a huge collection.and i love all of them! there are still some items not posted up ;) and some are real nice pieces!
anyway schools starting, i think i will really be very busy everyday.

i love my hectic life sometimes as it keeps me away from thinking all sorts of rubbish.

i need to get myself:
shorts
bangles
necklaces (chunky type ;) ) in love with them!
rings
COLOURED bags, not black ones

i end of with :
i think life is full of loves if you get to know the people around you more who is already very close to you! we usually do not feel the love from your closest people around you! is a sad thing thou!